(18/04/2011 03:16 AM)Sparker Wrote:  Who likes to leave everything until the last minute? Normally I don't but this case of procrastination is different.

Oh damn I don't like to do this but I always end Up like this I always end up doing everything at the last moment.

I could swear 2 term's ago I nearly ended up reading 400 pages of the fudgeing most hardest subject in my university in one night and one morning my mind was blowing up.

That day I swore to myself  to never leave thing for the last minute and to never ever get up early in the morning to study when I stay up late at night cause its fudgeing terrible, but I couldn't.

Right now I have to study for an exam that I have the day after tomorrow and I can't study a word the reason is because I fell in a stupid love over the internet with a girl in my country that actually likes anime's and metal
music creepy computer games and so on, something that was kinda unbelievable for me cause even boys here would laugh at you if you talked about anime's and stuff like that.
but she's been driving me crazy. I've chatted with her for about 2 months now on IMVU (I should have listened to you guys and stayed away from this fudgeing program I know ) and then on yahoo and even got her phone (though I only msged her and I haven't even spoke to her only seen her picture) but then suddenly a while ago she just came and said my mum won't let me speak to you and lets just be normal friends then she came and said my old boyfriend has come back then she found a new guy on IMVU and now she comes and says I only thought of you as a great friend.
I wanted to leave her but then I just decided to stay as a friend to her and again she left me last night and said I don't want to talk to you any more (she's kinda right cause though shes in my country she's in a city that is 2000km from mine ) but I keep holding on to her and everyone tells me I should let go but I just don't know why I can't. (Oh god I never thought I was such a fudgeing idiot)

It's been a few days that I've been walking around the house for all day and even crying I feel like a total looser that's what all my friends tell me too and I know you would too.
I don't know what to do any more and I don't know why I wrote this here, I've gone crazy again I wish I could put her out of my mind and start studying could anyone give me any advise Oh god I never that such a stupid love could be so terrible and drive you nuts

(18/04/2011 04:13 PM)ZiNgA BuRgA Wrote:  I feel bad saying this to you, but, if you've never actually heard her voice, chances are, it's a guy.

[mom voice]Get back to doing your work![/mum]

/runs

No well that was what I was starting to think but I got my friend to call her with skype and she sure was a girl

Oh god I've got another exam tomorrow and again she pissed me off so terrible last night, I have to cram all day today to hope of passing this subject (after failing it for 2 terms) and yet I feel so terrible, I can't read a single word. been awake since 5:30 in the morning walking around the house.

(25/04/2011 02:49 AM)ZiNgA BuRgA Wrote:  

(25/04/2011 12:18 AM)bloodangel619 Wrote:  No well that was what I was starting to think but I got my friend to call her with skype and she sure was a girl

I'm extremely suspicious that "she" is willing to talk to your friend and not you.

no my friend only made a funny voice and didn't say anything else.
Damn, I promised myself yesterday to never go on IMVU again but again she came back an hour ago and begged me to stay as her friend on IMVU and not to leave her why should this be happening to me well any way I'm pumped up now and I'm gonna have to use this energy and study ( now again I'm daydreaming ) I probably have to seriously procrastinate today Idiots like me seem to never change