(03/11/2011 06:34 PM)Tetris999 Wrote:  Hey vacui, I was always wondering, since you are lesbian I was wondering what your opinions are of yourself and men. Obviously I'm not homosexual myself, but I was under the impression that homo-related people consider themselves in parity of the opposite gender (so a girl has manly qualities and vice versa). So in theory, a girl that is homo would be someone I'd treat as if they were male, vice versa. Is that the case though? Or do you still see yourself as female but just don't like guys, to me I figured that your sexuality determines what gender you are, which technically is somewhat true as sexually reproductive organs/hormones do tell what "gender" you are.

Yes yes, offtopic, I'm bad, but I've been dying to ask this question.

I see myself as a female.  I never thought I was a male.  I've just known I've liked women ever since I was a little girl.  I've had a crush on my pre-school teacher, and a girl in my class. I wrote a letter to that girl that said, "I love you" and I drew a pig on it (which was the only thing I could draw at the time) anyway, she smiled, hugged, and kissed me on the cheek.  I liked that :D

Anyway, when I was little... I just thought it was normal for another girl to like another girl.  It wasn't until I was 11 years old I found out that society frowned upon it.  Did I try to stop being a lesbian after finding that out?  Yes, because I come from a very religious family, and I was disgusted with myself.  But... I realized that I just didn't like guys.  I never found them attractive.  I don't see what girls see in men.  I don't see what other men see in men :/  Guys just don't appeal to me.  I prefer the gentleness of a woman.  That's all.

By the way... I've been meaning to say this.   I've had my first kiss :D  But it was by a guy named "Bruce".  He thought he could "cure" me, but, surprise surprise, I'm still a lesbian.  I felt nothing from that kiss.  I agreed to let him kiss me too.  I just thought he was nice, and I figured... "I'm 20 years old and I've never kissed anyone before so... why not?"  So I wasted my first kiss.  Oh well~  It doesn't bother me.