I don't even know why I write this, it won't change anything but I just feel like it...
Wee have two budgies, a male one and a female one who always causes mischief and is

curious like hell... she's so fun to watch or rather was....

My mum wanted to arrange some flowers on the balcony and when she came back it she wasn't fast enough and the female one, Yuki, slipped right through the door outside...

I quickly tried to follow where she was flying but I lost sight of her.... I ran down the stairs and looked on every tree, knowing it was futile but I still did it...

My mum put our male one, Joey, back in the cage and put the cage outside on the balcony hoping Yuki would see her cage and find back, hack, Joey tweeted like hell but she never came.....

The balcony is still open and the cage stands on the living room table...

I goddamn feel like crying, she was so fun, something is missing and I know she probably won't survive with these temperatures here....

Some people will probably say it's stupid to cry over a budgie but she was a part of the family, no matter what she was... and I don't care what science says over the intelligence and self awareness of birds, she had a unique personality and loved to tease others.....
And if there was something new in the living room she swiftly explored it and caused mischief....

So yeah now I'm sitting here, playing FF13 to distract myself and trying to not think about anything.... I blamed my mum at first but I know it was an accident but hell.... I just feel sad and damn....