Now im not usually one to post personal threads, but i'd like to for once, because i posted it somewhere else as well, but i'd like to get some feedback from the people who genuinely 'get' me, and that pretty much comes down to you guys, and a couple of RL friends whom i'd rather not have see this, because they don't know that I'm asexual (and neither did yuou until now), but it raises a couple of awkward questiond with them i'n not yet ready to answer, so here goes. This paragraph is new, the rest is my old post

This is something that has been bugging me of late. Its long been said that im a sceptical person, and a cynical person, and that doesn't bother me. Whilst i don't see myself above human flaws, I'm in a state where i can see them, accept them, and work towards changing them myself. I think. Maybe im wrong, but hey, based on what i see, im more than willing to admit that i think the human race is past its best. I feel that people don't care any more, that people don't want to care any more, more worryingly, and i feel, at times, as though if this is what I'm attempting to combat, or what little of it there is now, that I'm wasting my time.

But, alas, my Cynicism and my scepticism are for another thread, if at all.

To my point, it has long occured to me that maybe my deep hatred of pretty much everyone (and I'm not with a god complex, I'll include myself in the list of the damned) is why im asexual. And why im aromantic. It's quite simply a case of; I could not deign to be with anyone for any period of time. That's not to say I don't have friends, there are people I'm willing to overlook the blatant flaws in (though i still see them rise), but it strikes me, not in an entirely unfair way, that there is so far no one i have ever met with an outlook to even attempt to rise above ourselves, and that whilst maybe I'm the wrong one, I'm happy to be him.

Alternately, it has occured to me at times that asexuality is just a cover i have adopted to cope with my scepticism, and cynicism, and this seems just as likely to me, although by choice i'd consider the first though, merely because it feels more 'right' to me at this moment

Well, consider this my asexual muse and rant, and take from it what you will, but it's simply something I've been sat on a few weeks and really needed to get off of my chest.

If anyone is interested, the original post is at AVEN but i wanted some feedback from people i really talk to as well as those i do occasionally