Endless Paradigm

Now im not usually one to post personal threads, but i'd like to for once, because i posted it somewhere else as well, but i'd like to get some feedback from the people who genuinely 'get' me, and that pretty much comes down to you guys, and a couple of RL friends whom i'd rather not have see this, because they don't know that I'm asexual (and neither did yuou until now), but it raises a couple of awkward questiond with them i'n not yet ready to answer, so here goes. This paragraph is new, the rest is my old post

This is something that has been bugging me of late. Its long been said that im a sceptical person, and a cynical person, and that doesn't bother me. Whilst i don't see myself above human flaws, I'm in a state where i can see them, accept them, and work towards changing them myself. I think. Maybe im wrong, but hey, based on what i see, im more than willing to admit that i think the human race is past its best. I feel that people don't care any more, that people don't want to care any more, more worryingly, and i feel, at times, as though if this is what I'm attempting to combat, or what little of it there is now, that I'm wasting my time.

But, alas, my Cynicism and my scepticism are for another thread, if at all.

To my point, it has long occured to me that maybe my deep hatred of pretty much everyone (and I'm not with a god complex, I'll include myself in the list of the damned) is why im asexual. And why im aromantic. It's quite simply a case of; I could not deign to be with anyone for any period of time. That's not to say I don't have friends, there are people I'm willing to overlook the blatant flaws in (though i still see them rise), but it strikes me, not in an entirely unfair way, that there is so far no one i have ever met with an outlook to even attempt to rise above ourselves, and that whilst maybe I'm the wrong one, I'm happy to be him.

Alternately, it has occured to me at times that asexuality is just a cover i have adopted to cope with my scepticism, and cynicism, and this seems just as likely to me, although by choice i'd consider the first though, merely because it feels more 'right' to me at this moment

Well, consider this my asexual muse and rant, and take from it what you will, but it's simply something I've been sat on a few weeks and really needed to get off of my chest.

If anyone is interested, the original post is at AVEN but i wanted some feedback from people i really talk to as well as those i do occasionally

DUDE!! are you crying!?!? ;p

dunno whot asexual means but if you love yourself or are happy with yourself feel good about yourself then that's ok i guess,..

sorry i am not giving youmuch feedback but i don't really understand whot you r about,.

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           ...you still masturbate right?

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Vegetano1 Wrote:DUDE!! are you crying!?!? ;p

dunno whot asexual means but if you love yourself or are happy with yourself feel good about yourself then that's ok i guess,..

sorry i am not giving youmuch feedback but i don't really understand whot you r about,.

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lol

here
http://www.google.ca/search?hl=en&source...a=&aq=&oq=

I didn't read the post with that much attention, but are you trying to say that you haven't really accepted a partner of sorts because you find yourself to be too picky about others? (and you're a little worried about it?)

ZiNgA BuRgA Wrote:I didn't read the post with that much attention, but are you trying to say that you haven't really accepted a partner of sorts because you find yourself to be too picky about others? (and you're a little worried about it?)

Or is it more that you feel that your "flaws" get in the way of finding someone? Do they make you feel that you're "not good enough"?

Seriously though. Look at all the assholes in the world and how good a life they have. If you realise that you're not perfect then you must be a good person at heart.

Asexual?

I though that's a reproduction system without the need of another sex (so self reproduction)...


EDIT: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asexual_reproduction

Assassinator Wrote:Asexual?

I though that's a reproduction system without the need of another sex (so self reproduction)...


EDIT: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asexual_reproduction

Aslo means a person who is simply not interested in sex or a relationship. A lack of sexual orientation.

roberth, you can only be asexual for so long. Other needs will take over and they are out of your control. 10,000 years of genetics is a very hard thing to fight. You have 2 choices here, give in or go mad. I'm not sure how old you are, but in your late 30's the need to nurture will become overwhelming.

People are flawed, they suck, and only care about themselves. I have faith in humanity, but not in man, or something like that.

PSPkiller Wrote:

ZiNgA BuRgA Wrote:I didn't read the post with that much attention, but are you trying to say that you haven't really accepted a partner of sorts because you find yourself to be too picky about others? (and you're a little worried about it?)

Or is it more that you feel that your "flaws" get in the way of finding someone? Do they make you feel that you're "not good enough"?

Seriously though. Look at all the assholes in the world and how good a life they have. If you realise that you're not perfect then you must be a good person at heart.

Nope, kinda the opposite. I feel that their flaws, which by extension are my flaws, keep me from being able to get close to them. Perhaps, or Perhaps its the other way around. I'm just musing more than anything, its not a pity statement, im the happiest in a group of us exactly as i am, and i don't intend for that to change.

And Xero1. Wee'll sell, but the link at the end of my post confirms an entire community of people who have done it, and who accept asexuality as a sexual oreintation, and not just a phase as your implying

I'm skeptic and cynic as well, but not asexual. I'm human.
I'm one of those person that doesn't care what others do, what they want to do, what they think of me, as long as they don't mess with me.
for I'm a legend in my own mind. i don't hate life/humans, but i do love hating life/humans. got to enjoy it while it last.
like you/i, and everyone else, everyone have a flaw.
but you can never be asexual for too long, you will reach the point you would want to have a partner, that partner is someone with a flaw as well, but can be a perfect partner if you can learn to accept that flaw.
i been in to some serious relationships as well, and some of them accept/doesn't accept my views in life (being skeptic, atheist, cynic, narcissist, pessimist, (almost)hikikomori-i have no disorder lol, i just hate mingling with people who i am not interested with, stays away as much as possible from all social niceties), understandable, after each relationship, there's always a hunger for me to find another partner. will always try to find that someone even it takes my lifetime. sometimes, a simple smile from someone who loves you can make a big difference.