(11/05/2010 10:38 PM)lembas Wrote:  ha, join the club. My doctor told me the same thing about 6 years ago.

(11/05/2010 10:37 PM)Hellgiver Wrote:  All I can say is to try to keep your loved ones close. Don't push them away. They'll help you through this.

this. My girlfriend's existence saved mine.

My girlfriend, wee broke up on sunday, but please don't take it the wrong way, it was very mutual, i felt that i wasn't ready to be with someone if i don't even know myself.

I am really glad shes still there to talk, wee might eventually get back together (hopefully).
but shes there always someone i can talk to, to get me through the day.

Also its my friends that i talk to the most, its my family however are the ones i don't know how to talk to.

I just told my mom about my suicidal attempts I have done in the past. The drugs that I have done and the mistakes I made. Things I am not proud of. I did those things six years ago.

But.... sometimes I still have those thoughts and after six years I am starting to open up, its hard, and i know its going to be a slow process opening up to my family.

I find it quite awkward talking to someone that you have been shunning your whole life.