umm.. my psychiatrist said its not good for me to think about that anymore... said i was messed up too much as it is already and that id probably get locked in a padded cell if i keep on about it....

... in reality, no.. i do like how they act but how are you going to marry paper and ink, or film, whatever it is... the getting abused thing is fun part LOL... id prolly get punched into the sky everyday, naru style LOL