i really don't want to get into all that an hi-jack this thread and get it all off topic so i leave one respnoce about it...  im not leaving for good.. as i said im just gonna focus my time on something im actually good at like subbing or maybe ill start seriously back into japanese so i can become fluent instead about 50/50 like i know now... i don't know.. i just need to get better...

@MehHakker - get on msn if ya want to talk about it

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