ok so everybody know ive been acting a little weird lately.. i know im weird already but worse then normal LOL.... well first my grandmother died two months ago, ive been in denial and not thinking about it but it catching up to me a bit... a girl i really liked turned out to be a complete $*@^* , a liar and a cheater.... my sister is acting like fool and making have to keep little boys in check (that's what big brothers do... im letting those asses touch my sis and i know what they want.. im a guy too and 90% of us are the same when it comes to girls if you know what i mean).. if just have alot to deal with and and theres more then what im even gonna bother to write here... SO i apologize for being a complainer and a crybaby as of late... like i said alot of stuff has happened and im one of thsoe types who takes everything out on myself cause i want to be best at everything i do (iam VERY harsh on myself.. i mean VERY)... or at least as good as i can be.... so im really sorry for acting like a weirdo lol and im still gonna take bit off from doing sigs and focus more on psp and pc wallpaper... NO MehHakker im not quiting the team... quite the opposite.. im just gonna be active in a different way.. im gonna try to help out some of our newer member learn a few tricks... maybe write some of my own tuts and do walls and stuff like i said.... im not going anywhere.. i love EP.... but anyways i just felt i need to say something so again im sorry if ive been sounding like a sore loser or a crybaby... im really not like that

lol i thought about this all day at work.. i had nothing to do today so i laid on my desk staring at the ceiling thinking.. then when i was done i got up and got some white paint and paint azumi really big on it in japanese charaters the i wrote just azumi in romanji under it... then i painted fuck u on the front...

Damn man :( It should only get better....

I'm glad you're not quitting and I think that helping people out is a good idea :D Girls can be horrible sometimes >:(

Lol. It's all good. Wee always need a time and place to rant and let it all out :p

You have every excuse to make a thread like this :P

well i do feel alot better now... i just need to vent a bit lol... thanks for listen/reading all that

i used to be extremely harsh on myself as well back when i was around 12 or 13 when i thought that i was better than everyone.... when i started to realise i wasn't as good as i thought i just pushed it back and carried on trying to outdo myself until in the end it was too much to handle.... i went through quite a depressed period but now i have rebuilt my confidence and ability bit by bit and only focus on perfecting what's important to me such as my drums and such......

   this is a really horrible thing to bear and i hope it doesn't get this bad with you azumi.....

ps..... emotions do not have effect on me anymore..... i got rid of the crappy ones like love and caring......

Azumi Wrote:well i do feel alot better now... i just need to vent a bit lol... thanks for listen/reading all that

It's all cool. This one time (eh last week) I wrote to a girl I liked about me liking her for like months, and I've been writing her poems since February telling her how cute she is and all that. When I asked her if she liked back, she said "No", without really any explanation. I dunno how this relates to your girl issues but whatever. It's done, and I can move on with life... So let's all move on together?

Here's a list of emotions for the hell of it:

your english teacher must be pissed...

She wasted a year of her life talking in front of the classroom for you

Who me? Don't make me smack you around..

not you a-zu-mi