Endless Paradigm

Ok....

i stopped meeting, calling & texting her for 5 years now (due to the unavoidable fact that she needs to move to a City where her University is located) the distance well probably 6hrs+ from our hometown.

Then time pass on, days turns to weeks, weeks turns to months, months turns to years, then suddenly it hit on me that i need to stop this silly relationship of ours (Silently didn't bother calling her). But one day i met her "best-friend" while resting in the park then she suddenly ask me why did i stop meeting, calling & texting her friend (the girl who i have relationship with). I couldn't answer her...

She (the best-friend) told me She (the girl who i have relationship with) still waited for me despite the years that have passed

I still didn't gave her(the best-friend) the reason why i stop meeting her(the girl who i have relationship with) I just stood there silently then later on told her (the best-friend) that I'm in a hurry....








why the fudge do i feel guilty & horrible at the same time





EDIT: sorry if my English is bad cause I'm not a native English speaker..

Nyu~ Wrote:why the fudge do i feel guilty & horrible at the same time

Probably because you cut off all contact with this girl (unbeknownst to her), and now you feel guilty, because you're just finding out she still waited for you all this time.

To be honest, that was kind of cold of you.  You should have at least told her why you wanted to end your relationship, rather than not telling her, and have her wondering what's going on.  Then you probably wouldn't be feeling this guilt now.  You could have saved yourself (and her) a lot of pain.

Pretty much what Natale said, not the best way to end a relationship.

Vacui☆Natale Wrote: [ -> ]

Nyu~ Wrote:why the fudge do i feel guilty & horrible at the same time

Probably because you cut off all contact with this girl (unbeknownst to her), and now you feel guilty, because you're just finding out she still waited for you all this time.

To be honest, that was kind of cold of you.  You should have at least told her why you wanted to end your relationship, rather than not telling her, and have her wondering what's going on.  Then you probably wouldn't be feeling this guilt now.  You could have saved yourself (and her) a lot of pain.

In short I'm despicable even my friends say that
i sometimes remember her during rainy days & when I'm alone... (that's why I'm bring this predicament of mine.. again)


nowadays i prefer to be alone

(maybe forever)

I wouldn't say you're dispicable.  It was just a lapse in judgement, since you now regret it.  I'm sure you didn't mean to hurt her, but what's done, is done, unfortunately.

Maybe you should meet up with her, and tell her what happened, and hopefully, you can resolve this.  Though, that's up to you whether or not you want to do that.  The outcome could be either negative, or positive, depending on her reaction.

yeah i should meet with her....

Nyu~ Wrote: [ -> ]yeah i should meet with her....

meet her and explain it all , why you did that.

Why do men need this stuff explained to them?
CALL HER!  I mean, jeez, you've been doing this fer 5 years, then all of a sudden cut her off?  I mean, I know there's a lot that wee don't know about; how often did you call, was there any real commitment feelings from either of you, etc, but at the very least you owed her better than that.

Nyu~ Wrote: [ -> ]In short I'm despicable even my friends say that

You're not.
Even when I make a few bad choices, I feel the same way as you but you can't feel like this forever

Vacui☆Natale Wrote: [ -> ]Maybe you should meet up with her

+1 on that as well

Man this reminds me of a girl asking me to hang out after I came back home from my first year of university. She told me to give her a time but I never did and it's been a year now, wee still go to the same school too (I never saw her there though).