sloooooooow dooooown man

but i get what you're saying,

you will honestly learn from experience and from the internet more then you will probably learn from your school, i know that from experience, i do small programming for a friend in town, nothing like php just css and html with the occasional php or server command. but in order to get a real good paying job you have to at least have a degree from a school somewhere so at least they can believe you know the work, you can cross the hurdles of double you tee eff to do with asp.net c# etc when you get to them. maybe just try to transfer to a more hands on school or get a job as an intern somewhere so you can grow, just make sure you like what you're doing.

as for fapping, it depends on the person, i think its a natural urge to want to climax, and when you wake up with morning-wood, its hard to say no, but i don't feel tired afterwards, i get the energy to get trough the day and some confidence to talk to some random chick i may meet out on my daily errands