(05/08/2010 02:03 AM)LumpiaWarrior Wrote:  

(04/08/2010 06:19 PM)ZiNgA BuRgA Wrote:  What are your interests, by the way?

Are you talking about interests in life? Well I was doing engineering for three years before i realized that I have only been doing that so my father would have something to be proud of me for. Hes always put me down when I wanted to do something enjoyable in life.

I always just wanted to make him proud.

And since hes an engineer himself I thought you know if i did that then he would be proud of me.
but i couldn't hold the facade up much longer. I really hated the subject even though i understood the concepts. I just got tired of it.

And then I just snapped.

And i couldn't bring it upon myself to attend the engineering school that I had been attending.

So i decided to look into my other options. I never gave any other subjects a decent look over since, even in high school i was so dead set in going into engineering. I never realized that my other skills could have a better base on things.

I wanted to do music, but music is a hard thing to do since i didn't apply myself in high school i basically missed out on a bunch of opportunities and its basically too late for me.

but i have also always been a good listener and i always liked helping people. I never realized that helping people could be something i could use as a career.

So I came across 'Music Therapy' so maybe ill be a psyche major and see where that brings me. I haven't had this spark of inspiration for awhile so i am putting a lot of hopes in this subject. Hopefully i won't have to waste another 3 years before realizing what i want to do.

UNBELIEVABLE!! that's just like me I didn't like engineering to much but I chose it just to make my dad proud of me because he studies agricultural engineering though he always dreamed of study mechanical engineering but he didn't get the grade he needed and so he always wanted me to become a mechanical engineer too but all I've ended up doing is fudgeing up his reputation I had 7 subjects this term and I only passed 3 of them and I even had to sleep in the hospital for 1 day to get a prescription to omit 2 of my subject, he had to speak with most of my teachers that were his friend and ruin his reputation to just get me some grades.

I really don't know what to do or who to blame myself, my dad or my mum and they have enough problems themselves they use to fight a lot and my chocolateting in the university is just making everything worse I really hate my university and the subject and just sitting in the classes drives me crazy but I don't know what to do I'm already term 5 and if I quite now I'll have to start all over again also I always loved playing the electric guitar but my parents didn't let me play and they sent me to play classic guitar. I gave it up after a year too and after begging them for years they finally agreed to buy me an electric guitar and I was 19 at that time so I don't know if its too late or not.
I really have the same problems I am frowning in the house all the time and I don't even have a gf to help me out sometimes. I even hate the country I'm in. I feel my life is getting wasted but all I know is that I'm not gonna give up not yet.

I've always been good at drawing and stuff like that but I haven't even ever gone to a painting class, though I'm not gone give up this summer I've been working a lot on my Photoshop skills and my guitar and I'm hoping that this might give me the key to get out of here I've been really feeling much better these days.

It so grate that you finally found something your good at just keep it up and I don't think its too late for you to start music it would even help you feel much better.

I'm really still confused about my life my self so I might not be able to help you that much but all I know is that wee've got to keep a hold of it a bit longer wee have to take our opportunities these decisions wee have to make are really really hard but wee'll have to try and find an answer to them and free ourselves!