Apparently I have anger problems since I like to fly off the handle all the time.

Its really detrimental to everything that's happening to me as of late.
Today was supposed to be a good day and I just blew up. I even started to contemplate suicide. I had the pills in hand and I probably downed 9 pills before I stopped myself. I know that Ill be fine and that I'll probably just throw up later. But the point is is that I sometimes forget to calm down and I always manage to rely on the negatives of everything.

Sometimes I think that I am not worth living. I thought I was on the road to recovery but methinks I am relapsing from the problems in my life.

I am not healthy. And thank some higher being that I ran out of my sleeping pills a couple days ago cause I would have downed those too. My sake I tried to OD on adderall and seroquel...i ran out of zoloft.

I wasn't thinking. My girlfriend shes helping me. but im afraid that if she leaves me that I might go into an worse mental state than I am. She is the only person who is keeping me sane and if she leaves I don't know what to do. she stopped me by texting me and telling me 'to grow some balls' lol so blunt but she helps me everyday.

Im depressed and im angry at the world and i don't know how to handle the smallest things anymore.

Is it bad that i am passive about things and hold in my anger and then proceed to get mad at the smallest things?