xero1 Wrote:...

Note2:

I'm sorry for anyone that might take this the wrong way, I'm not very good at explaining what feel. I don't think the way most people do, and thinking people do the way I do, or know what I know (assumption of knowledge is very wrong and I'm sorry for my poor replies)

It's okay. Nobody can expect simple words to properly express true feeling anyway. The only true way to understand anything is to experience it firsthand.