Last night, I was planning on killing myself because I've had severe depression for over a year now. Being ridiculed by my parents for being gay and many other unmentionable things they put me through just put me in a "fuck it all" state of mind. So, last night I tried drinking myself to death. Obviously it didn't work and now I've got the most God awful hangover. I hate sounding like a drama whore but I want to apologize to Tony and Shad. I keep forgetting there's still a small handful of people out there that do care about me and I'm a selfish prick. I'm sorry guys...

Wee forgive you jooms. :D

To be honest you're one of the best people here on EP. :D

I could go on with a huge drawn out sob story that this branched from but I won't to save myself from seeming like an attention seeking loser. I mainly started this thread to apologize to Bread and trademark.

My head is pretty much like TV static at this point. When I try to think about what to do, I can't. It's all gibberish and I don't want to admit that I need someone's help. I've made it 12 years on my own and accepting someone's wouldn't feel right when I've done nothing to deserve it.

I know how you feel. I've gone through my own depression and suicidal thoughts; I don't blame you one bit, it's not your fault. Honestly, you're one of the best friends I've got on the internet, at all, even, and I hate to see you feeling like this. I'm really not much for words, but I do care, and you have nothing to apologize for.

I hope you feel better soon, Joomla.  I know how it feels to be depressed, and suicide is something I've also thought about many times...

man hope you get better jooms... I've had my brush with depression also and mixed with booze i still got the scars from it...

Well, I'm not very good with consoling people, so I can only say that I am glad that you're still with us here today.

I'd reply to this all if I knew how to correctly. I'd say "thanks" but it isn't enough.

Joomla u r the BEST!