Endless Paradigm

Well, because i have a nice long reading break and i have the time to write this post, when i should be doing other important things.

First off, i just noticed it was valentines day today; but for some obvious reasons i didn't really care much for it. Had run-ins with women already and all turned to be a letdown, I'm not going to say how perfect i am, i know the extent of what i lack in personality; so i don't see much reason in running after women these days since i either lack what they want or they lack what i'd like to see (hint: a good personality).



Continuing on, life goals are tough as always; you would THINK i would be doing very well in school with the amount of time i spend to communicating with others (which is little), i tend to use my time in a rather wasteful way. As such, when test or lab times are around i usually just tend to screw up when i do them. Infuriatingly, i also have friends telling me what I'm doing is wrong all the time and that it's my fault; alright, i can understand making a mistake but sometimes someone doesn't know exactly everything.

SO, I'm not doing that well in university, also i just feel like everything I'm doing right now is a joke; like if i followed everything i did right now it wouldn't really help me with what i really want to get out of life. A friend told me i need to get more involved, but community work is where i fail at; i can never study or do anything when I'm with others so it's been driving me nuts at the conundrum that has sprung up here.

There's definitely something wrong with the way i pursue and use my knowledge, it seems a glaring and imposing thing, but alas, i cannot find it.

What talent do i possess? What knowledge do i have? Well, if I'm sure about one thing, is that when I'm focused, i can stay focused.

But what should i do and where do i turn my attention to? That's the question.

unfortunately I can't answer those questions for you :(

But, from what I've seen you seem like an interesting guy, maybe your friends are being too mean.


I hope stuff works out for you.

HawkeYe Wrote: [ -> ]unfortunately I can't answer those questions for you :(

But, from what I've seen you seem like an interesting guy, maybe your friends are being too mean.


I hope stuff works out for you.

sorry, if that reply seems to generic, but I don't have much experience in this field.

Thanks ek~hawkeye, you don't *need* "experience" to give an opinion.

Also, i don't think it's "mean," rather it's a more realistic approach; but I'd be damned any man/woman that has found the truth to be the thing that brings peace to their minds. Hence, my complaining and stubbornness towards the world and how it works.

Tetris999 Wrote:Also, i don't think it's "mean," rather it's a more realistic approach;

Maybe that too, I guess I misinterpreted it lol :P

Tetris999 Wrote:Hence, my complaining and stubbornous(«- i swear to god i remembered this as a word, yet i cannot find the auto correct for it)

Stubbornness?

HawkeYe Wrote: [ -> ]

Tetris999 Wrote:Also, i don't think it's "mean," rather it's a more realistic approach;

Maybe that too, I guess I misinterpreted it lol :P

Tetris999 Wrote:Hence, my complaining and stubbornous(«- i swear to god i remembered this as a word, yet i cannot find the auto correct for it)

Stubbornness?

Aye, there wee go. Looks like I'm more discombobulated than i seem to be lol :P.

Tetris999 Wrote: [ -> ]Well, if I'm sure about one thing, is that when I'm focused, i can stay focused.

But what should i do and where do i turn my attention to? That's the question.

Well it's obvious that University is the answer but do you really feel that way subconsciously?

You won't find the drive for it unless you have a strong reason to really go at it.

I made a rule for myself a long time ago. If I'm not doing anything and I get invited someplace I'll do it. No matter how bad I think it will be. As long as it doesn't cost me to much or will land me in jail, I'll go.

You WILL find people you like in groups you don't.

I'm not saying you do this and it sounds cliché, but give people a chance. I used to dismiss people for not liking XYZ, thinking XYZ is cool, or other snap judgements. Also stupidity is not a character flaw, don't dislike people for being stupid. Ignorant yes, stupid no. Over the years I have met many good people that aren't very smart. Remember stupidity is genetic and ignorance is a choice.