02/10/2010, 03:41 AM
So, I've gotten pass my first month alone in uni! Can't say everything is going well and there's quite a lot to talk about; but since I'm lazy and i have a S_H_I_T load of work I'll just write down the most important thoughts.
First of all, i like being alone; or if that's too much of an overstatement, I'm pretty content with it. I find that I'm very calm and not worried about life when I'm not around others; maybe I'm just an envious guy or that people just tend to piss me off. Well, that would be the latter in my opinion. What i find to be pretty shameful about myself is that i need to despise others to get my *spark* of work. So as such, i can get pretty distracted and pretty empowered by people to the point i start to lose my sanity; so really, it's really awesome to be in the position i am in life right now. I can never really exist when i have the nagging thought of someone in any group I'm in trying to put themselves over me; i hate people like that so i have this tendency to wanting to smash their reputation. As you can tell, I'm competitive only when someone is trying to be; please don't take it as something bad, what i really want in life is that everyone treats everyone else with respect; such things as intelligence or strength shouldn't separate or cause people to rank themselves to others. >_>
Anyway, it's quite hard for me to get working in university because of all the amount of work that needs to be done. The most hardest part about learning is where the hell to start. It's easy enough to beat my head into a clear wall until i get through it, but here; it's much more different. It's more about finding your way with your work and getting to it. It's quite hard, like as if you're looking for treasure, except when you find it, it's a bitch to get the treasure or what you're looking for inside and sometimes you may not find what you're looking for at all! It's a tough process.
So here i sit, with midterms just around the corner and labs due by the next few days. My overall physical shape is going degrade if i keep going like this, which, imo; bothers me. Last thing i want is to get wasted out of shape; I'm not a perfectionist or role model, but i sure as hell don't want to be totally out of my game.
It's a lot of work guys and i still can't see the light; what a bother i tell you, specially when i can blog post like this and STILL not get any work done! URGH!
I need to find what's stopping me from learning, seriously.
Oh yeah, i seem to be having headaches these days, my assumption is that I'm not eating right, which it probably is really...
First of all, i like being alone; or if that's too much of an overstatement, I'm pretty content with it. I find that I'm very calm and not worried about life when I'm not around others; maybe I'm just an envious guy or that people just tend to piss me off. Well, that would be the latter in my opinion. What i find to be pretty shameful about myself is that i need to despise others to get my *spark* of work. So as such, i can get pretty distracted and pretty empowered by people to the point i start to lose my sanity; so really, it's really awesome to be in the position i am in life right now. I can never really exist when i have the nagging thought of someone in any group I'm in trying to put themselves over me; i hate people like that so i have this tendency to wanting to smash their reputation. As you can tell, I'm competitive only when someone is trying to be; please don't take it as something bad, what i really want in life is that everyone treats everyone else with respect; such things as intelligence or strength shouldn't separate or cause people to rank themselves to others. >_>
Anyway, it's quite hard for me to get working in university because of all the amount of work that needs to be done. The most hardest part about learning is where the hell to start. It's easy enough to beat my head into a clear wall until i get through it, but here; it's much more different. It's more about finding your way with your work and getting to it. It's quite hard, like as if you're looking for treasure, except when you find it, it's a bitch to get the treasure or what you're looking for inside and sometimes you may not find what you're looking for at all! It's a tough process.
So here i sit, with midterms just around the corner and labs due by the next few days. My overall physical shape is going degrade if i keep going like this, which, imo; bothers me. Last thing i want is to get wasted out of shape; I'm not a perfectionist or role model, but i sure as hell don't want to be totally out of my game.
It's a lot of work guys and i still can't see the light; what a bother i tell you, specially when i can blog post like this and STILL not get any work done! URGH!
I need to find what's stopping me from learning, seriously.
Oh yeah, i seem to be having headaches these days, my assumption is that I'm not eating right, which it probably is really...
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