Endless Paradigm

I am clinically depressed.

That's what my doctor told me yesterday.

Well that sucks.

I'm clinically depressed too.

What ever you do don't start taking meds...

its weird now going to therapy for it, having to talk to someone about it, i don't know how to feel

I was born with Major Depression. Try to keep your loved ones close. Don't push them away. They'll help you through this.  

I don't know how well certain antidepressants work with clinical depression, but for the most part, it is usually safe because it is helping with a natural process in your body.  If you do get prescribed anything, do your own research, as well as see any help you can before choosing to do so. Stay in there!

ha, join the club. My doctor told me the same thing about 6 years ago.

Hellgiver Wrote: [ -> ]All I can say is to try to keep your loved ones close. Don't push them away. They'll help you through this.

this. My girlfriend's existence saved mine.

xero1 Wrote: [ -> ]What ever you do don't start taking meds...

unless you truly feel it can help

that's what i am afraid of, i don't want to have the chance to change the person i am if it comes to that

I was on Prozac and Seroquel a couple of years ago.  I don't take them anymore, but when I was on them, they made me feel a little better, but one of the side effects of Prozac is that it may actually increase thoughts of suicide, which is what it did for me.

If they put you on any meds, I hope they don't prescribe Prozac.  It just makes things worse...

./xitherun.sh Wrote: [ -> ]ha, join the club. My doctor told me the same thing about 6 years ago.

Hellgiver Wrote: [ -> ]All I can say is to try to keep your loved ones close. Don't push them away. They'll help you through this.

this. My girlfriend's existence saved mine.

My girlfriend, wee broke up on sunday, but please don't take it the wrong way, it was very mutual, i felt that i wasn't ready to be with someone if i don't even know myself.

I am really glad shes still there to talk, wee might eventually get back together (hopefully).
but shes there always someone i can talk to, to get me through the day.

Also its my friends that i talk to the most, its my family however are the ones i don't know how to talk to.

I just told my mom about my suicidal attempts I have done in the past. The drugs that I have done and the mistakes I made. Things I am not proud of. I did those things six years ago.

But.... sometimes I still have those thoughts and after six years I am starting to open up, its hard, and i know its going to be a slow process opening up to my family.

I find it quite awkward talking to someone that you have been shunning your whole life.

Id be clinically depressed if I saw a doctor
Id be legally insane if I saw a shrink
Im pretty sure I may be a sociapath

best to smile and act like nothing is wrong
I am a mask percieved by people whose generalizations make me what I am... Although I myself may never decide what I am, I may certainly influence other's perception to make myself anything I want

If 9/10 of people who know me say Im not crazy, I am not crazy
while deep inside, I will always know how crazy I truly am