Endless Paradigm

So I don't really want to even post this thread, but I thought, "What the hell, let's see what happens." The reason being is because I don't trust half the douches on the internet who think they know all when it comes to relationships, especially long distance relationships.

Long story short, I was in a six month relationship with this girl (I'll call her Lily, she's a character in my book, and if you're reading it you'll see the connection now) who was, frankly, the love of my life. I know most people don't think there is only "one person out there for everyone" and that there are bound to be more compatible matches, but I don't  give a spoon. Lily was and is the only person I could ever love. And now she's gone. All gone. Well this happened a few months ago, and at first I thought, "Alright, no need to panic, it'll only make it worse." So I remained calm and tried to get over it, tried to get out there and meet new people.

Well now a few months later (I don't know how long it's actually been) and I'm still alone and even more depressed then ever. And of course last night I just had to have a dream about my ex that made me think twice about trying to forget about her. I've only been awake for about an hour now and already I'm having one of the worst days of my life crying my eyes out. I even had to cancel band practice. Some may call this weakness, but I call it feelings. True, I wish I didn't have any feelings so I wouldn't have to feel like this, but there's nothing anyone can do about it. The only good thing I'm getting out of this day is that I'm rapidly approaching the end of finishing my book (most likely because it's easier to express how I'm feeling into the writing).

So, what should I do? Lily lives in Indiana (yes, wee've met, she's not a dude. I flew down there for a week a while back and it was the shortest yet most amazing week of my life) and is with another guy right now, but I still love her and would do anything in my power to get her back. Maybe I'm stupid, maybe I'm just confused. One thing's for sure--I love this girl, and I could never feel the same about anyone else.

I assumed that this Lily is a guy. But if you say she's not. >_>

Lunar Wrote:

i would never go through so much trouble over a woman...maybe i've never fallen in love? oh well poonani for me anyday!

There's not much i can say, if you feel like this you won't listen to us trying to discourage you. I'm not saying that because of ignorance, because you're in love

6 months? That's still puppy love, dude.

Joomla12 Wrote:6 months? That's still puppy love, dude.

Exactly why I said I didn't want to post this on the internet. All anyone ever knows and talks about is getting laid. Jesus Christ, am I the only who believes life is more than just having sex? I don't think I can any longer call the internet a second home anymore. Not when they're are retarded douchebags who think I don't know what love is or that I'm just an idiot.

Well, to those who do think I'm an idiot: FUCK YOU. I don't give a spoon what you think. You live your life how you want, I'll live mine the way I want. If you want to sleep with crab-infested sluts all the time, be my guest. You'll end up alone with your herpes and I'll be having the time of my life with the girl of my dreams if things ever go my way.

/end rant.

i didnt even mention sex :/ and im only talking from experience... i never said you were an idiot.

theEvilOne Wrote:Exactly why I said I didn't want to post this on the internet. All anyone ever knows and talks about is getting laid. Jesus Christ, am I the only who believes life is more than just having sex? I don't think I can any longer call the internet a second home anymore. Not when they're are retarded douchebags who think I don't know what love is or that I'm just an idiot.

Well, to those who do think I'm an idiot: FUCK YOU. I don't give a spoon what you think. You live your life how you want, I'll live mine the way I want. If you want to sleep with crab-infested sluts all the time, be my guest. You'll end up alone with your herpes and I'll be having the time of my life with the girl of my dreams if things ever go my way.

/end rant.

No ones called you an idiot. The fact of the matter is though, no matter what wee all say, if your in love with her, it won't make the damndedest bit of difference because you'll feel the same

ProperBritish Wrote:i didnt even mention sex :/ and im only talking from experience... i never said you were an idiot.

I never mentioned any names, it just pisses me off when people in general always think that they're lifestyle is how everyone else's should be. It's not.

I'm done with this thread.

EDIT: @ roberth: finally, someone with a little sense. You have the right of it, no matter what anyone on the internet says I'll still feel the same, so it was kinda pointless to post this thread in the first place. I guess I was hoping someone would tell me something that would make me feel better, but the only to do that so far was grey ghost.

theEvilOne Wrote:

ProperBritish Wrote:i didnt even mention sex :/ and im only talking from experience... i never said you were an idiot.

I never mentioned any names, it just pisses me off when people in general always think that they're lifestyle is how everyone else's should be. It's not.

I'm done with this thread.

EDIT: @ roberth: finally, someone with a little sense. You have the right of it, no matter what anyone on the internet says I'll still feel the same, so it was kinda pointless to post this thread in the first place. I guess I was hoping someone would tell me something that would make me feel better, but the only to do that so far was grey ghost.

Yes it was pointless. Thank you for finally realizing that.