Endless Paradigm

I feel like sh*t today.... kind of dizzy, heavy head, headache, I don't know if I still have Derealization or not, I simply can't tell and my memory seems like the one of a 100 year old aunt....

The only stuff I remember is what I ate and "important stuff" like that I visited friends on Friday and Saturday, that I was in the cinema with my class 2 weeks ago and so on...
Everything that happens on a generic "like any other day" is gone...
I don't know if my memory was like that before or if I'm just over sensitive right now...
The strange thing is, if I get a very small hint of a certain time period, I will instantly remember everything that happened. If I hear radio I will forget what song just played after about one minute, unless I really want to remember...

I feel like locked in my thoughts, they seem like more present then anything else and if I'm tired everything seems like a videogame, I assume that indicates I still have Derealization...

I will go to the doc again soon and this time be completely honest to him, I will accept any treatment/test etc, other then going to hospital...

I really don't know what all this is, I only know what it is not, the brain tumor I feared at the beginning because if I had one, I would have constant headache, would be vomiting because of high brain pressure and whatnot...

I will (NOT) laugh my donkey off if my case is the same as the one of a guy I read about, he had similar symptoms like me... no doc could find anything.. in the end it was a f*cking wisdom teeth that pushed against a nerv....

You have to know I fear dentists almost more then death, I brush my teeth 2 times a day and visit the dentist only when absolutely necessary when I have serve pain etc...
But if nothing else can be found I will go to the dentist hell as my last resort

And you know what? I mentally feel slightly better  after writing all this out

Oh and welcome to the dark side of SkyDX...

That's how i feel everyday 0.o

Well MICk3Y that's sad.... I only know I felt way different 9 weeks before.....

SkyDX Wrote:Well MICk3Y that's sad.... I only know I felt way different 9 weeks before.....

Maybe its just a mind thing :???

That could be it... Depression can cause MANY chocolatety stuff.... but even make life appear unreal?

(LOL at EPs Auto Correction)

Wow, and i thought it was just me.
I'm sure this describes me too, I'm going to look it up.

im a little scared of skydx's darkside. D:

... that's not good at all sky... i hope theres nothing really wrong with you.... i don't know how it is at all not to remember stuff but i do know how it is to have other problems... its not a good way to feel at all....  oh and i too fear the dentist more then anything... specially the sound of that drill... i can't stand thinking about it....

Thanks for the replys guys!

Jon, you might want to read this

And I'm really confused right now.... I was dizzy all day, then I went shopping in the next city and was pretty ok... I now came home, sat down on my chair.... BOOM! Dizzy.... double you tee eff......

!?!
I have a constant headache but I figured that was from lack of sleep. My brain and its memory sectors also seem to be malfunctioning. I went to eat the other day and I forgot how to hold a fudge. I had also gone to play wii and couldn't remember how to work or hold that either. I tend to forget things as I am doing them, or I seem to forget what I had just did. As for viewing my life like a game, I don't really know because I don't take my life seriously anyway. For all I know this is a damn game so why be so serious about it.

Anyway, sorry to trouble you with my problems when you clearly have problems of your own. I hope you get "better" and things return to "normal" (whatever those are).